Complications and Vulnerability

How many life changes are good for a person in a 6 month span? It depends on if they are viewed as good or bad.

On June 28, I misjudged a step, fell onto my outstretched left wrist. Fractured it. Actually destroyed it, pulverized it. Yeah, when I do it, I do it up good.

2 weeks immobilized in a splint before having surgery, with pins and plate. I’m now 3 weeks post surgery. Wow, on the healing path, you’d think. And I guess I am. But between the stiffness in my hand, wrist and fingers from so long being immobilized, and continued swelling, it’s a very slow recovery. I can’t even make a fist. I only thought I was frustrated in my last post about my house.

As I sit here trying to create a positive attitude where I feel none (sorry, negative Nancy has been visiting), I try to find patience and gratitude in this situation. It’s damn hard. I cry constantly trying to stretch my hand, fingers, wrist in pain, frustration and self pity. There must be some lessons I’m supposed to be getting out of this.

Finding the silver lining has been a challenge but it might be this. I have had a tribe of friends, checking on me, visiting me, driving me to appointments. My son I had been “on a break” with, has stepped up, helping, texting more than we’ve ever done. These people have shown me caring and love like never before. So this, this is what I’m supposed to learn. Who my people are.

In my big life change, I have considered moving to Arizona or some place warmer. After this all encompassing, devastating injury, it gives me pause. To be that far away from real help. That’s not to say I can’t make new friends but it’s definitely something to consider that I never gave a real thought to.

I believe in adventures, in independence, your own self strength. But I now have PTSD, near stairs or unstable footing. I am afraid more than I should be of “what if” right now. I hope this fades, and it probably will. The emotional toll has been almost as bad as the physical in many ways. The vulnerability shakes me, its undescribable. But that being said, it’s one day, one hour at a time to get through this.

And I will.

3 thoughts on “Complications and Vulnerability

  1. Oh Lisa, I feel for you girl! You have the same plate in your wrist as I have we are plate sisters now.
    AZ gets hot in Summer but they also have AC! Maybe do a 6-month stay in WA and 6 months in Quartzsite they are building nice places for seasonal who live in their campers with attached garages for the camper. Hanging there it takes a long time to heal from that injury. Keep up the therapy. See you soon.

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  2. Lisa I understand exactly what you are going through. After 1 year in a recliner in terrible pain it seems like it’s impossible to get back to living. I’ve decided I’m going to do all I can do with exercise at the gym. Everyone is critical but until you are there they don’t understand. You will get through this with help from family and friends wish I was close and we’d do it together. You are so strong and the greatest attitude soon you will look back at this as a little bump in the road. Love you lady! Come along with me!♥️🤗

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  3. Hang in there girl. Gobout and look at Jupiter. We are all so small in the scheme of things. This too shall pass. Take a vacation and reset your brain. You’ll get this past you soon. Keep up with the therapy and the pain should subside.

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